Being Real....God doesn't make mistakes...

How often have we failed?  And thought there is no way God could still love us?  Maybe we've done something that has caused us to question our very foundation.  Doubting we could ever be forgiven.  Christ has mercy on us.  And when we seek forgiveness HE gives it without any conditions.  His love never fails.

I remember as a teen making decisions that turned people against me.  I did whatever I could to be rejected.  I didn't want to liked.  Yet despite all my efforts some people still liked me.  Some I'm even friends with today.  I grew up in a home where love was fleeting and anger was front and center.  I didn't know what acceptance was.  I became defensive, battered and bruised.

The battles scars lasted till I was a young adult.  And even then the gaping wounds in my heart were still evident by my behavior.  Through counselling...therapy and prayer I began to see who I was in Christ.  Not a burden.  Not a mistake.  No longer a victim I began to look into who God was.  In my first year of bible college I took a course on the FATHER...HEART IF GOD.

I began to realize who this man in the bible really was.  Not just a fictional character in a book called the bible.  Not just a story I heard in Sunday school.  But someone who loved me unconditionally.  Someone who accepted me as HIS own.  ABBA father.  EL SHADDAI.  Since my earthly father seemed mire like a fictional character who ignored all the signs of abuse I hadn't been able to trust men.

Men were manipulative, abusers, liars.  And the ones I did trust were few and far between.  God broke through the barriers and time and time again HE proved HE was worthy.  Not because I deserved it.  But because that is who HE US.  For the first time in my life I could let my guard down and trust HIM.  When I finally accepted Christ it was with an open heart...healed from my past.  Knowing I was healed because if the price HEA PAID.  

The scars I suffered on earth were nothing compared to The ones HE bore at Calvary.  He wiped my tears and assured me HE would never leave me nor forsake me.  HE filled my spirit and showed me the life HE intended me to have.  And as I've grown up I've been able to see many of HIS  promises come true.  I've had my challenges but God has been there every step of the way.  Walk in faith...trust HIM....And know you are loved beyond measure.  You are not a mistake

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